well i, i would have never known.

oh, and this kid. im serioulsy obsessed. yes, my stalker. jake. i love him. fuck. he says he likes me. but thats it. THATS IT. quit fucking telling me you like me unless youre going to do something about it, god damnit. I LIKE YOU TOO!  honestly, i need to get over it. but i cant. no ones ever told me they liked me before, that ive actually liked. and ive liked him for a long time. turns out he was going to ask me to prom. but nooooooo, i went with andrew and regretted it. stared at jake the entire fucking time. wished. but idk. then he tells me he was going to ask me out but never did cause he didnt think i liked him that way. FUCK! why? it seriously kills me. and him telling me he wants to kiss me. stop it. youre killing me here. i have like 284920 saved texts from him. 

'i was actualy guna ask u to prom. but i waited to long and i figured that u wouldnt want to go with me.' 3/15/08. 

'oh. uk i was guna ask you out b4.' 5/31/08. 

'yea i still like you. your the only person i kiss on the cheak.' 5/31/08. 

'i kinda wana kiss you. dont ask.' 6/5/08. 

'u really dont kno how bad i wana kiss you. but shh nobody needs to kno but you.' 6/19/08. 

'but i like you.' 8/15/08.

and thats only some of them. shit, ive never wanted anything this bad. im completely serious. i cant just let it go. idk why i even like him. well hell, why does he like me? for crying out fucking loud. i dont get it. :[